I know we all have said this phrase at least once in our lives… (when things don’t go according to our plans, unexpected and unwelcomed changes, losses, surprises , ect). It is my goal in this blog, to be transparent in sharing the truths of this beautiful journey God is taking me through (this missionary life). So I ask you my precious readers to please receive my vulnerable moments with open hearts and open minds. May these experiences & lessons speak to you & remind you that we have a Faithful, Loving, Protecting, Giving, Just, Providing, and Truthful God.
So the last few weeks have been very interesting. First, my sister visited me in FL. Yay! We had an amazing, beautiful, much needed sister time! That week I went to the consulate in Miami to start my dual citizenship process (for Colombia). To backtrack, It took months to prepare for this first appointment (lost documents in the mail, waiting on my sis to bring my parents docs, etc). Long story short, the day of appointment, they told me I was still missing a document. But PRAISE GOD that there was a facility down the street who can process the document I needed. When I went there, they initially told me that they couldn’t get it done the same day (you can imagine the anxiety rising on top of dealing with Miami traffic) but GOD brought the manager who happened to be available to help me. Then, I was able to go back to the consulate to get my first set of Registro papers! (which means I am in Colombia’s database).
Then, (4 days after this consulate appointment spectacle), I had just dropt my sister off at the airport and just as I was pulling in to park my car at home…. My car died on me…. I panicked. I couldn’t put the car into park (it kept driving forward as if it was trying to mow the lawn), so I put the car in emergency break to avoid scaring my neighbors. Long story short, God provided me the friends who were available to drive by to see if I was ok & to send me their trusted mechanic info. I was able to use my auto insurance tow policy (which I didn’t know I had) and my car was towed to the mechanic. PRAISE GOD it was only the gear shift cable that needed to be fixed so it was fixed within 24 hours!
THEN, this week (7 days later after car incident) I went to my bank to deposit cash in the smart atm machine (although I question its intelligence lol). As the machine took my debit card and cash, it completely shut down and left me no receipt. I went inside to talk to a manager. The first manager who spoke to me was very task oriented and came off lacking empathy. I felt like there was more concern about proving that I deposited cash instead of understanding the machine had a glitch. Then.. that’s when it happened. Jersey Jackie came out. (nothing against my old home state, that’s just the name I gave myself when I get that ‘edge’ or attitude). So, I had a bit of an emotional breakdown. PRAISE GOD that there was another manager who took the time to hear me out and was truly gifted with compassion and empathy. We then filed necessary paperwork for them to refund me the money as soon as possible (which PRAISE GOD was resolved within two days).
I guess the reoccurring theme is…When things are falling apart (in our eyes), God is always in control. He has us in the palm of his hand. (Isaiah 41:10) (Psalm 46:1) There were blessings in the midst of these unwanted moments I had (James 1:2-4). I can see them now. The fact that my car stalled in a parking spot an and not in a busy road, or how I prayed more when the unexpected came, and how God provided the right compassionate people when I least expected it. We need to have our eyes & hearts open to see them. He is FAITHFUL. He is my comforter, my provider, my healer, and everything in between! I can see that if I am not careful to view trials thru God’s eyes, I might react in despair or lack faith when things ‘fall apart’. Maybe we all need to consider God is just putting ‘things in place’ according to his will for us. He is definitely putting things in place in my heart that is, with His peace that surpasses all understanding. (Philippians 4:7) 😊❤
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.”
James 1: 2-4
”Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your fiath produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything”
“And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”